Saturday, February 25, 2006

To laugh often and much;
To win the respect of intelligent people and the respect of children;
To earn the approbation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty;
To find the best in others;
To give of one's self;
To leave the world a bit better,whether by a healthy child, a garden patch, or a redeemed social condition;
To have played and laughed with enthusiasm and sung with exultation;
To know even one life hs breathed easier because you have lived-
This is to have succeeded.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

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okay... details on our summer plans:
so my travel agent(or more accuratly stated, my parents travel agent) can get us plain tickets to New York, a 2-way flight for 10 days at about $250 each. thats like... crazy cheap and it looks like the price will stay low for about a month. now i know many of you didnt want to go to new york, and we dont have to, its just an option. a freaking sweet option with SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much theatre in it... lol
now we also discussed the possibility of going west, which would also be oober awsome. and i would most likely have a car that can fit... what?? 7 people in it. so there's that as well.
i know, a totally stupid blog, but iwanted to blog and had nothing to talk about.
oh yeah, chris and sousa, we are on for spring break and i am TOTALLY IN!!! WWWWOOOO! because my parents will be gone.... hehehe. so lets do it. and as far as the camping trips, i have maps oif possibilities in utah and one in new mexico. we will discuss it later.

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

....Is it possible to make an apology en masse?

ok so... I am an ass, we can all agree... And you don't really think its that bad of a thing until you look around and you realize that your asseyness has left you completely alone, with the people you love and trust hating you. S o this blog is several things.
1. A super huge apology to some of the people I have abused beyond endurance lately(I would like to note that I will be mentioning specific peoples names.... If your name isn't mentioned, then either I don't know I offended you, or I'm not sorry, or I really didn't and you are crazy)
2. A detailed resolution to do much MUCH better in the future.
3. A pathetic ploy to try and win my friends back.
ok... To start naming names.... I will try and do this in reverse chronology(that means backwards) since my memory works that way.
first, Emily. I am so dang sorry for mocking you and Ben(oh yeah...Ben.... This is one for you too...). What you two have is beautiful, and it was pure envy that makes me(and others in my opinion) mock it. Because I for one know I wont ever have anything even remotely close to being as great as the friendship and relationship that you two have. And I must say that we could all draw important lessons from you two. I'm not really expecting you to start liking me again... Just... Don't hate me AS much.... K?
Next, Mette. I HAVE changed a lot. And not for the better. And it is only through the patients and understanding of wonderful people like you that I haven't gone off the deep end. YOU are already aware of how much I owe you and why I owe you it. But for everyone else's sake(so they know how super neat you are): mette saved my life in 8th grade. I was a scrawny little no one with absolutely no friends. My 7th grade year book had 2 signatures in it, one from the librarian and one from a teacher. I was completely alone and was literally planning on going home that day and killing myself. And then, a cute little blonde girl(mette that's you!) leaned over in our 8th grade science class(MR tuft, third row of tables, I was on the left side you were in the middle) and asked for help with an assignment(magnetism, if memory serves). And she then invited me to the Halloween dance after school... I went, had a blast, and made a few friends. FRIENDS!!!! Something I had never had since I moved here... I am alive today because of you mette. And I have been treating you like crap as of late. And that's just down right sick of me. IM sorry I have become so bitter and resentful towards everything and I am going to try to put a better light on things from now on... But I cant do it alone. Please... Be my sister again?
Jenesse: face it, I'm an ass. We are all cruel and judgmental. Its sad but true. I applaud your attempts to make us better people, even as I see them not working. Don't give up. We need more people like you in the group. I'm sorry for the way I talked the other night and I hope I can make it up to you.
Jessamyn... ya know what? I deserve everything I've gotten don't I? For having broken your heart twice. All I can say in my own pathetic defense is that in my opinion I did those things for the right reasons. But in my attempt to be a good person, I forgot that people have feelings. I'm sorry... Just know that this year has been a terrible one, but I will endure; Satyagraha is only so far away.
Tasha I piss you off at least 4 times a day. For anything and everything. And I'm sorry. Love you
Cathy I'm sorry I cant be a good person even around you. But we are still friends right?
Sousa... What ever man. We're cool.... And HANSMEN MUST BURN!!!
anyways... There are others I'm sure so I will update this later. Just know that I AM going to try. I will be more positive and caring... I hope... And I think we can all help eachother. I for one know ill need all the help I can get.